I got invited to play on the public radio station in Gallup, KGLP (91.7 FM). That was quite a rush, and quite fun.
It’s been an exhausting couple of months and maybe an exhausting year. Over the course of 2009, I started the discipline of writing songs on Sundays, not always hitting 12 hours, but found that discipline and perseverance create their own inertia.
I realized I have so much to learn and do as a musician, performer, songwriter, and (yikes!) business person. Talent does not equal success.
The goal is communication. The standard is excellence. The road is discipline.
…but there is a lot of joy/heartache/discovery along the way.
I learnt to always use my own equipment and have fun no matter what. I decided not to quit my job just yet because there is much I can learn about applying discipline and perseverance whilst having an apparent lack of time and energy. (How badly do I want it?)
On the flip side of things, I discovered I do fear failure and success and have a lot of self-doubt, (Ugh!) but I think I can work with some of these things. After all, one doesn’t have to believe every thought that comes into one’s mind.
Despite feeling simultaneously tired and yet anxious to return to work, I’m taking a little time off to go on a listening binge, participate in NaNoWriMo, and craft a path of learning for myself. I want to be an excellent musician, songwriter, and performer–among myriad other things. I think I can find a way to do them all, but I will have to invent a new path for myself.
I’m supposed to be recording in early 2010 so I have something to take with me to the east coast. Mwahaha.
No worries! Even I can admit that things take time.
